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Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
1:26 am	and they're in the final stretch! sooo yea. school will be over in about a week and a half. graduation is going to be week later. I have one assignment, one presentation, two classes, one paper and four finals left. wow. scary. aside from that things are good. I totally aced this presentation today and since I have been working my ass off at it all semester I am feeling pretty good. Now I gotta get ready to move back home and see what the summer entails. I think i will give myself the summer to get adjusted and relax and have a good time, but I think that I want at least some sort of job that can pay the bills and have a place and time to move to by september. there is the possibility of me moving to the northeast, one of my teachers has some contacts at Sikorsky and he is really pushing me entering into their management rotation program. Free grad school and good pay, plus I would have interesting work so I wouldn't be bored, but who knows. But i am doing well, and all I need to do is figure out what I am going to do after school. but for now I am having a blast, and I am going to party my ass off when I am not working my ass of (and the ratio is definitely going to be my favor) then I can graduate and pretend like I am a mature and responsible member of society. and off i go (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 18th, 2009
10:24 pm	one more semester. life is already here, it always changes, so just live life, every minute, every hour, every day. lets do this thing (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 27th, 2008
6:15 pm	holy crap balls. this break has been crazy types of amazing. wonderful things. wonderful times. but still crazy. huge questions, and I don't really know. Some things are terrifying but awesome, but the others are great but I don't know how to feel about them. Honestly, I think I need to swallow my pride, my fears and enjoy what it is that I currently have. Really, its great. Its fun, its nice, it actually makes me happy. The other things, I really don't know. I just don't. I also need to work on that filter between my brain and mouth. I can say some pretty stupid things when I am not thinking. In the end though. What a time, what an amazing time. It will take me where it takes me, and I guess I should just shut up and enjoy life instead of over-thinking it. (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 20th, 2008
1:46 pm	For me really, but if you are interested Study for Test Take Test Finish Calc Research Frat Meeting Football Sleep Up Class Lunch Paper Class Get Ready VA BEACH! Get home Paper(s) Ritual Party Football Paper(s) Study Sleep Class Lunch Paper Relax/Pack Dinner night Class Lunch Class Break and done (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 13th, 2008
11:33 pm	so life = crazy busy Chartering of NSU came and went Fed Challenge came and went have free time now, but it never seems like enough. After months of being so busy I could drop I need to find a routine so I can start chipping away at this research I have left and start writing my paper to try and be published I have realize a big flaw in me. I need pressure and/or and intense passion about something to do well. The classes I have no concern with, the ones that don't challenge me, are the ones I do the worst in. I always seem to pull a decent grade out of them, but I should be getting A's. I get a decent grade only because at crunch time I manage to do amazing work, but for a class so easy I shouldn't let a semester waste away while I don't care. At least I know when the pressure is on, I can produce something amazing stuff, and need to remember that and translate it into a work ethic to the things I typically deem beneath me. Also, I am terrified of finishing this research. Once its done, and the paper is written that is it. I mean, I need to pass my classes but really the hardest thing I have left in college is that paper. Now if I get published, or at least am well accepted by my teacher(s) and other academics of the subject I will be happy, but then it will be time for real world stuff. Not only that, but I don't want to fail. This is something that I can use for the rest of my life if it goes well, but finishing it and being in the process of doing it are two completely different things. There are only a handful of experts on this subject in the US and when you limit it to published authors the number drops to the point you can most likely count all the published authors currently residing in the US on your digits. Its a big step, but I can't seem to find the motivation to finish the rest of this database and start the paper. I am terrified of the step this represents and what could go wrong. On the plus side I got use of an empty faculty office until Fed. I am bringing in my material next week and will leave it and work in the office. That should help me focus and get more done, but the fear is still there and I just have to learn how to beat it. On the plus side, its going to be a lot of fun to have my professors stop by my office. Good thing I am cool enough with most of them I can pull that off. And its also awesome that my department is allowing me to use this office and it does show that my professor(s) have a lot of confidence in me. I think that does it for now. And to the law paper and than "A funny thing happened on the way to the forum" before bed. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 28th, 2008
1:20 am	more for me but you might care Tomorrow: 11am: Class 12.15pm: Study for midterm 1.30pm: Fed Challenge Meeting 2.30pm: Class 4pm: Study for midterm 5pm: Essay 6pm: Dinner 6.30pm: Fed Challenge Meeting 7pm: Mock Fed Challenge Presentation with professors 9pm: Mario Party 11.30pm: Essay 1am: Sleep Wed 11am: Class 12pm: Lunch 1pm: Midterm 2pm: Class 3pm: Fed Challenge 6.30pm: Fed Challenge Dinner 8pm: Fed Challenge 9.30pm: Essay 10.30om: Sleep Thurs 6.30am: Leave for Richmond 10am: Fed Challenge Unknown Ending (Latest) 7pm: Essay 8pm: Halloween Dance 10pm: Essay Fri 11am: Class 12pm: Lunch 1pm: Class 2pm: Class 3pm:: Pumpkin Carving 6.30pm: Nap and dinner 8.30pm: Halloween party and done (Comment on this)
Monday, September 29th, 2008
1:10 am	good weekend yes some nice things happened, but the best of it, is that what I wanted to happen, happened things went the way I wanted them to, and I even got bonuses! and yes, happiness (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
4:33 pm	I miss all of my friends back at home, but dear god do I love being down at school. Its strange, at home I can be myself personally, and here at school I can be myself professionally. Don't get me wrong, its not the place or the people, but living at my parents house cramps me mentally and I just don't feel as successful or motivated to do anything worthwhile professionally. This week, I still have to get my apartment in order, its actually coming along quite nicely and I have to say it is a real treat (even being cluttered like it is). I also have a shit-ton of work to do on my research stuff. So I should prolly be doing that but I needed a second to unwind from the day before I started throwing myself into cleaning, unpacking work and cooking dinner. Then I will find out about the FedChallenge hopefully by the end of this week. Supposedly there are something like 12-14 very qualified students interested in being the 5 presenters so I hope that I make the cut. The benefit is that I know all three profs who will be making the decisons about the final team very well, but still kinda worried. I was reassured by other classmates that there were sure I would get on the team, but i am still worried and then if I don't maybe people will stop seeing me as they do, and I have to say that I really like being thought of as one of the smartest kids in the econ dept. Then there is housekeeping frat work to be done, plus those normal class things. So in short, I am loving it. I get to see my friends, get to be productive and feel successful, and I am incredibly busy in a very rewarding way. I know that later I will bitch and moan about how much stuff I have to do, and that I will get incredibly stressed throughout the semester, but I want that challenge. And I look forward to the end of this semester and then my college career and I want to be able to say this is what I did, and reap the rewards I earn. I just hope I earn rewards I can be proud of. but sitting at my desk will not earn me much other than an enlarged ass so I should most likely stop typing and get that ass in gear. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 10th, 2008
12:06 am	Sit there watching, and waiting. Will I snap or be strong The phone, the lighter, or the box? All just as dangerous though some don't see how or why? When will I be dangerous, but only to the point it excites? Damn this head of mine (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 7th, 2008
5:41 pm	its weird with summer coming to a close I feel crappy. I feel amazing. Good, bad and every type of ugly in between but we made it through. So much time I spent with you, and you spent with me. Secretly we are all seeing what is coming on the horizon. Like a sin buried and never forgotten but always unmentioned. Life. It is not nice, we have all learned her cruel bitchy lessons in spades, and us more so than anyone else. When will we ever see each other again. what amazing things will you do that I will miss, and what tragedies will I later endure? My friends, my support. The people who are always there to catch me fall. How quietly we can all slip away and leave each other alone. And you, oh you. You have ridden the roller coaster been my highs and watched my lows. How is that with all we have said and done we can't say those words and admit that it just won't be the same. Not always, but maybe. It could be the end. There are two weeks left and we have all forgotten a lesson that we never wanted to be reminded of again, that tomorrow is uncertain. You don't know what will happen down the road. Its ok not to plan, and its fine to just go with the flow. But then you look back and without realizing it you are down a path that has carried you away from everything you once held dear, and you feel the rain soaking you too the core, and you shiver. Where will we be when all is said and done? How far will we have gone, or how different will we have become? I miss you I love you I want you I hate you I could care less but I don't Fucked up. Its just plain fucked up. But we will party night and day, til each of us goes are way. Forgetting the times but not the people. Say goodbye and mean see you later, never knowing if what you said, or what I promised has any grain of truth at all (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 29th, 2008
4:48 pm	ohhh life. life life life life life life life. Words, Emotions, Actions, Lies, Truth, Realization, and your are left where? Its funny in a sick and twisted way. What do you do? How do I respond? Where are things going? yea. funny that (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 21st, 2008
2:41 pm	oh my goodness life has been non-stop recently. It was beautiful this weekend because I was finally able to do whatever the hell I wanted without worrying about anything else. I wanted to do something and I would do it, and it was such a necessary break from reality. Stuff has been kinda rough recently. But I am handling it the best I can and don't thing I have been doing too badly. The trick is to keep up with everything and take care of what needs to be done. My one complaint is I wish that drama didn't happen. People need to chill about the little things because life will throw enough shit your way by itself and it doesn't need any help to create situations that will be difficult. But this week should be good. I am going to finish my research and start on the paper portion for school. There is a bunch of work stuff to do at the bank, and then on Saturday my parents are going out of town so I will be having a nice party. Then I will have the house to myself so I can take care of things, be productive, have fun and relax all without my family creating a vortex of chaos that threatens to drag me in. So yea, gotta run, and if I was supposed to call you this weekend and didn't, I will call you back soon. I am sorry for anyone I ignored but things got to the point that I stopped caring and just did whatever instead of making or following through with plans. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 6th, 2008
11:36 am	I like throwing surprise parties. You get to totally talk about your friend behind their back, conspire with other friends against one of your own, and get to fuck with someone's head. SOOOOOOOOO much fun. I love it (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 10th, 2008
10:34 am	uggghhhhh........................ long semester. but at least its done. I did an exchange rate paper and came up with a model to predict changes in the Euro-Dollar exchange rate. For a single model it is not bad, but to properly do an exchange rate estimation you need something like a minimum of five equations to account for the fact that not only do the independent variables effect the dependent variables, but it the dependent affect the independents as well. Still with a final confidence interval or plus-minus eight percent it is not a bad model. That paper stole my weak, worked well over 30 hours on it this week, and then there were the rest of my finals. I feel like this summer is going to be hard and easy at the same time. I believe that there will be major changes in my life that will not be the most pleasant, but I am confident in my ability to adapt and will come to like the changes that will prepare me for my life after college But as of right now, I worry about the changes. Even if they are for the best change is still something that is scary and painful. I just hope that I have matured to the point that I can greet major changes with a degree of composure and not let major shifts in some areas throw the rest of my life into a spin. This week should be good however. Today my parents are coming down and bringing Colin. After filling out some paperwork for my apartment next year, we are going to load up the two cars and I will have a pleasant ride up home with Colin and I will enjoy bithcing about all the tediums that this week held. Then two days to adjust and I get to go camping with my fraternity for a retreat. After that we are singing for graduation so I will get to say goodbye to all my friends and enjoy some of the pomp and circumstance with them. Then the summer, work, and just doing as much as I can and enjoying everything else. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
2:09 pm	International research is the worst.... I have found many sources for my papers (3 left, all ECON, totaling 29-38 pages over the next week and a half) but so many of them are industry sources that I have to pay to get. Some of them such as the Adam's Liquor Handbook for research into the Distilled Spirits Industry (which btw is extremely successful, there are some stocks that will be good buys if firms can manage to not take hits from rising food prices)costs over a grand for a years copy into all this collated and organized data. I want to see it so bad, but just I don't think there is anyway around the monetary barriers. On the other hand, with I could totally work for some of the firms that put out these reports. But yes mad papers, finding international regulation of different industries is extremely difficult. Specially China, I don't think my hypothetical company will expand there, too many regulations (that I don't want to sort out in my research), sides, I have to be a international company, meaning I sell around the world but my industry is defined as the American Whiskey Industry, meaning I have to be an American firm and cannot participate in any kind of foreign direct investment, otherwise I wouldn't be American Whiskey. Aside from papers: two Econ tests, mad frat stuff, two 21st birthdays for friends this weekend, and still trying to find a place to live next year. Alright, I should work instead of procrastinate. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
11:04 am	so my week...... today: NO CLASS! beautiful. normally I would be bored but I have to finish this 8 page paper. and by finish I mean write most of it. Only other thing for today, going to a lecture by the "executive in residence". Its just some guy from DuPont talking about leadership and business. He will mention China and things, but if there is a Q&A I can surprise him by asking about Kevlar and a bra's, which are actually the two biggest uses for advanced fiber technology, or at least they were in 2005. tomorrow: class, turn in paper by noon. Then resume stuff, writing samples, turning in resume to TCS, CIA, and other places, class, and finding a place to live next year friday: class, finding a place to live, frat event, then fin. Not too busy, once I finish my paper, its all work stuff and living place stuff. so off to finish paper. bleh. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2008
11:37 am	lets see: one or two semesters more of undergrad? while working, not working? grad school, work, or grad school and work? part time-part time, full time-part time, part time-full time choices. I don't know what I want, what would be best, what would be the best choice from a career perspective, best choice for my head or my heart? Somehow, the time to make the big decisions about life at the end of school creep up on you. I knew that I would take at least one extra semester when I was doing music, but now the choice between one or two or work or agh! I feel like I did right after high school. That summer was awesome just doing my thing and having fun. Then time for school snuck up and then we all started the whirlwind of college life. Now the time for real life is here, and I don't know my path yet, and I don't like wandering. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
11:51 am	Obama He is a great man. As a possible president: I am mixed in regard to his policies. I flat out disagree with some, agree with others, and need more details on others. A possible swing: I need to know how Obama classifies the middle class. Where is the cut-off. People over a million, two million, one hundred thousand? I do not think that a lot of "upper-class" or "rich Americans" are as rich as some think. To tax someone who makes 250,000 as much as someone who makes 1,000,000 is just as bad as taxing someone who makes 25,000 as much as someone who makes 100,000. And while 250,000 is obviously a salary that can provide an excellent life for a family, it is not the same as a million and want their to be that difference for the upper-middle class which can be swept into a particular category that they do not need to belong to. Also, When I have some more time I need to read how exactly he plans to pay for the social programs he champions. I am not sure if the repealing the Bush tax cuts will really provide that much money (given of course with reduced spending in Iraq). I don't know And: Trade is good. Free trade is better. The only reason I believe in re-examining trade agreements to find a way to expand upon them. But back to the man. I have the utmost respect for Barak Obama, I believe the man would approach every decision thinking "what is best for America?" I think he is honorable and will later be recognized as one of the best orators of the time. Even if I may disagree with some of his policies, and if he wins I will bitch about the economic stupidity of any of them that are economically stupid, I will not be disappointed if he wins the presidency. How can you be disappointed with a man who represents honor so well? The same goes true for my opinion of John McCain. While I may be on an Obama kick after listening to his speech, I see John McCain and Barack Obama as being two of the same types of man who have different perceptions that put them on different sides of the aisle, but on the same side of the American people. Should there be an election that see Barack Obama vs. John McCain, I would be truly hopeful for this country and its future. No matter what the outcome, I think the next four years would be a time to help our country move forward. Both of them, honorable men. Honor, I think that has to be the single most important trait in a leader. And I hope Obama wins his party's nomination, because then we would have two honorable people either of which would be good for our country. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 17th, 2008
8:50 pm	Quick Life Update here it goes: School: Progressing decently well. GenEd's melt my brain and take up my time. I would advise not leaving low level classes towards the end of school. In all truth the busy work just distracts you and is not really a "break". If you are worried about overloading on upper-level classes, get through the GenEds quick and really load up the first couple of years. busy work is truly annoying. And upper level classes are starting in with the heavy lifting so it will be busy. Research: Progressing. Not as fast as I would like but we are starting to get somewhere. I just hope that I can keep motivated and not let my other obligations distract me from the work I am doing. The money is a big ease off my mind but I don't want to let myself get behind in any other areas or the research. Just need to get good at juggling Fraternity: Going well. Was voted as the ACPR this weekend for next academic year. ACPR = assistant collegiate province representative. I will have a lot of stuff in the province to due, but no direct chapter responcibilities or national obligations, which is exactly what I wanted. Otherwise, 5 PMs and I think it will be a good pm period this year. Other Life: No complaints. Decently busy as people can most likely tell but everything is good. There are times I wish for a slow period to catch my breath but no rest for the weary. Spring break should be good I just need to figure out what I am doing, Chelsea is doing, and if brothers (frat brothers) plan on trying to do something and I am not sure what I am doing. So yea. Good but busy. Back to work (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008
10:22 pm	My life is just a bit sporadic right now. I get these bursts of energy and productivity and then I turn around and while I am not sad I feel bored and not content. Its weird and I can't really explain it, I just hope I can use the spurts of intense productivity to turn out some solid work on a consistent basis. Off to bed, 8am tomorrow. bleh (Comment on this)